Merry Christmas, Everybody! ♥

Merry Christmas, people! I know it's belated but Christmas got 12 days and I only knew it like now??? Hahahaha! How was your Christmas? Mine was kind of sucky but I get to see him, so everything was kind of cool. Can you believe it? He's just right in front of me yet I don't have the guts to even say 'hello' or look at him directly. No wonder he didn't want me, hahahaha. Okay la..

Went to Dhoby Ghaut with Jillian and she was really slow b/c I saw Edmund at Sengkang Platform that time, she haven't even reached! I kept talking to Edmund but he's still as quiet as the first time I met him till later on, hahaha. Vernice and Yilong said they are meeting me there but that mad couple actually cabbed down and when I reached Just Acia, they had eaten finish already. He was there and Ahbi was there too, haha.
10 of us occupied the seats there but yet less than half of us were eating, Jillian said she'll eat with me but that liar :-(

I made videos cause I was kind of bored. I look like student that day anot? Hahaha! Weiliang gave us Christmas cards and he's damn cute, he wrote in black on a dark purple paper or something like that, the words could hardly be seen but to summarize it all, he just say that I'm cute and sweet and everything good lah.. hahahaha!! LOOOOOL. I'm just taking this chance to compliment myself. But thanks Weiliang!!

 

I spent Christmas with them and I'm going to spend the end of 2011 with them too, cool? Anyway I just came back from meeting Sheena for htht and puffs, she always have her ways to make her problem mine and that her situation is always somewhat similar to what's going on with me now. I always have this gush of sadness coming to me when I hear her talk about hers. Headed to Clarke Quay afterwards. Weiliang, Tionghian and Ben were like really acting cute? They just kept staring at the bungee jump and said they wanted to take a ride but have no balls. I'm going to sit there one day with one of the most timid among all so I can scare them!!

I kept disturbing both Edmunds and it's really funny when Edmund Lim knew my full name and I kept irritating him. He said I was annoying. :-( I know that's a lie, must be. Haha! Chased them all around, hahaha! I guess I was really in the mood to have fun.

All pictures ain't in order, I'm too tired for that already. You know now what time? It's 02:41. I slept two days straight, amazing? I missed Justin's birthday b/c I tonned at his house together with Zhaoxiao, Ahbi and Vernice... gosh I feel so bad but HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUSTIN, I PROMISE TO MAKE IT UP TO YOU, I SWEAR! We went Kbox together and he was there and I kind of feel like having some alone time to myself, haha. Anyway shall talk about that day at Justin's house, we called Mac breakfast and I snored at his house, gosh so embarrassing and you know what's sickening? Is that when I'm home, I can sleep like some sleeping beauty and when I'm out, all my unglams are shown. What's with me ah so cocked up? They should have recorded my snoring so I can put as my ring tone, hahaha!!!

It's kind of sad when Pamela and Alvin said they are probably leaving to other countries to have further studies and Jillian start to exaggerate and said she wanted to die and said she wanted to study in hell since everyone is leaving her, hahaha I seriously can't help it but kept laughing. We just sat down and it's so beautiful in Clarke Quay, bubbles are all around! I seriously thought I could celebrate my Christmas with you but hahaha how silly.

I'm glad I didn't ask anything that day b/c I think things are better off remained unsaid. If you're mine, you'd be back someday. Not now, definitely. I already planned what to do for 2012 already and I'm going to complete everything and if time isn't enough, I'll then shove them to 2013. I hope the world isn't coming to an end b/c there's really many things I want to do and yet haven't had the chance to complete. Please...

Oh! And I've got confidence we'd be back together again, I've no idea why. You know I lost my handphone last year right? I knew it's almost impossible to get it back and it really didn't return. But it's alright. When I lost my wallet, although it's pretty disheartening but there's something holding on within that makes me feel that it'd be back and GOSH IT REALLY CAME BACK OKAY, I GOT A CALL FROM MBS SAYING THEY FOUND MY WALLET AND EVERYTHING INSIDE WASN'T LOST, GOSH! Amazing anot? They found it back like 3 weeks later? Everyone couldn't believe it lah and when I found my wallet, I was so elated that I kept saying how happy I was on the phone till Justin couldn't take it and Vernice fell asleep, hahaha!!!

Tionghian is really insane, look! He wore Pam's high heels and walked like some tranny hahahaha! But it's really hilarious. Jillian went to get bubble tea for us, hehe. I can't believe Ryan can buy alcohol lah, I look more mature than him yet I couldn't pass the talking part. >:-( Life is unfair! And they kept imitating my voice, gosh sickening!

I know this post contain alot of irrelevant stuffs but hehe i'm really happy! I've got no other pictures to post already so I'll just carry on with the day while posting pictures that has no link with the content. B/c I was nervous, I kept asking them how to start a conversation then Edmund, Jillian, Pamela, Ryan, Tionghian and Ben kept giving crap ideas, hahaha.

Left the crowd to look for Vernice at Plaza Sing. Ahbi, Justin, Rongyao, Yilong was there and we sat this one hour and thirty mins journey back to Ang Mo Kio. I really have this motion sickness in me, hate long bus rides.

Waited for him and he didn't come, I expected it, cool? Got kind of angry, not disappointed but seriously abit pissed b/c we could have caught a movie or even sing K or something but b/c he took forever to not come then all the plans got cocked up. Went to supermarket and I bought loads of chocolates and they go like "Woah, why you buy so much?" Habit to nom on chocolates when I'm unhappy, don't ask me why.

Went to Yilong's house by cab afterwards, bid goodbye to Justin and Rongyao. Had some drinks and Vernice started her nonsense again. Yilong's grandma damn adorable, she kept persuading us to go church and I said I was in love with this guy who doesn't give a fuck and she's so hilarious, she asked me to go church to sing some songs and I can forget him, hahaha! I didn't want to forget him and pain is kind of enjoyment too. :-)

Seriously buey tahan Ahbi, kept singing Kpop songs and acting like he's some Korean stars, hahaha! Went to Kopitiam to eat in the morning and they kept ordering food non-stop and they go like, "Eat for fun lah." Hahahaha, weirdos lor seriously!! Who's appetite so big in the morning one! Vernice really has one of the biggest mouths, she said out whatever I told her, annoying much! Then she covered my mouth when I talked about her, smljjjjjj?!

Sweet? This is Alvin. We're like father-daughter r/s and he's always there to talk sense out, lend me his shoulders when I cry and he's a really nice guy, gentleman. :-) I'm glad to know him. He always make me feel doted.

Group polaroid to end this post, x. Saw David and I'm amazing he still recognizes me and saw Orhleng at Dhoby too, haha. Home sweet home around afternoon, Ahbi was really cool, he sent me off first :-)

Hey, I don't know if you get to see this. But move on with your life, I'll hold on to your words forever. I'm not kidding. I hope years later when we meet, you'll still remember me and you'll get to show me with actions of all the sweet stuffs you said to me instead of telling me you said them for the sake of saying. I hope by then, you'll stop playing with hearts, you'll settle down. I don't know if you'd be settling down with any other girls but if you do, then last long. :-) I wish the best for you. You're one of those most amazing and challenging guys I've met in this 16 years and I'm not done with you, xx.
长大后的好处是小时候要的东西，长大已不想要了。但不，我希望长大后的我们还会要彼此。
You can have your fun, you can have your girls, you can hurt me, go ahead. I know you don't care, I know you won't look back, but it's alright. I've never been so determined and motivated before. I hope everything is not too late in the future, really. Perhaps when I grew older and I read this part, I may think it's silly but for now, I seriously believe in me.

I'll catch your tears when they fall.

22/12. Went to Jillian's chalet. Okay, seriously I'm happy for nothing b/c on 17th we talked about going swimming and although I'm having my monthly red, I decided to use tampon and really go for a swim!!! It's been a really long time since I swam and ahhhh spoil my mood. I go packed everything already and ready to go swimming then this Jillian Sher go 扫我的兴！

I'm late to meet Jillian, supposed to meet around 1/2pm but I was packing my swimming stuffs FOR NOTHING. Okay nevermind, they came to fetch me around my house area to Pasir Ris to meet the rest. I'm being a nuisance in the cab as usual, I kept talking to the taxi driver and asked if the weather is good for swimming and I told him I lai ang and asked if I should go for a swim. Hahaha then Jillian and Sweeny were laughing like idiots. Okay I think the uncle got kind of annoyed by me b/c afterwards I just kept talking and nobody replied. :-(

We waited for like hours b/c we can't check in ourselves for don't know what reason. Then don't know who came down to check in for us so we headed to the chalet. I was really tired. Sweeny went off and didn't came back at all for that day. Rongjun kept disturbing me and I really wanted to have a nap but couldn't b/c he kept running in my mind. Pamela was really noisy and Jillian thinks she's skinny or something, she just kept jumping on me. I'm just glad my ribcage didn't fracture.

 

Okay, guess what I'm doing at the above picture in front of the mirror? I'm putting my make up on and you know why I went there bare-faced? BECAUSE I THOUGHT WE WERE LITERALLY GOING SWIMMING T_T. Nevermind, Alvin and Jillian promised me that we will be going to Anchovale for a swim and I don't care, we must! Oh and Jillian likes to give me false hopes, she promised we'd be eating Just Acia but awww WE DIDN'T. Argh!

 

Nom nom nom and I was kind of awkward at first b/c I don't really know anybody there. We just kept snapping photos and everything. I really think I look like a cat, no??? That's not a good thing either! Oh talking about cats, there's this really cute brown cat always wandering around our BBQ pit, hahaha!

 

Look at how sleepy I look in the second picture, you've really no idea how much I feel like falling asleep.. So we have this Christmas presents opening session or something and aww I came empty-handed, I didn't even have time to buy anything!!! Thanks Jillian and Alvin for the presents anyway, I love it. ♥♥♥
Woah, you should really see Alvin's expression when he knew Jillian bought him TOMS, his face went totally red and he hid behind the curtains, awww damn cute!! Pamela also, she got high heels from Alvin and it was red and she goes like "Omg I can even wear this for Christmas!" Then she wore on the spot, hahaha!!!

 

I know I look extremely weird when I smile and show my teeth but awww I really love this picture, don't you think I look happy in it? Hehe! I've got loads of picture so probably you guys may find this blog post kind of lengthy! Okay, you can comment how ugly I look in low quality pictures also can, hahaha.

 

Rongjun is really good in making funny faces but I deleted them all b/c it's really retarded!!! We started making videos and although I'm posting none but I really had a good laughing looking back at them. Awww and I guess this year is pretty good for Jillian and I because we didn't quarrel and we never felt this close together before, I swear. Despite there's a period of me and her labeling each other as 'best friends', we still didn't stay as close as we could be now. ♥

 

This is one of those most least retarded facial expressions done by Rongjun! Anyway I think we nua on the bed super long and then the rain just goes on and stop and on and stop, so kind of irritating to have water dripping on you while you're barbecuing!

Vernice and Desmund came to look for me and oh boy I'm so glad things didn't get awkward and Desmund was really good in making everybody laugh but that kind of pissed me off in the morning like around 6am when he still cracking jokes and everybody on the bed were vibrating due to laughter and I seriously can't fall asleep! When I came back from getting Vernice at Mac, Jillian started drinking already and I think Pam they all also. Pure vodka really makes me sick especially from the bad experience I had days back so I didn't drank much.

Vernice was practically on the phone the whole night with Yilong and the most amazing part about this couple is that they never get sick of each other even facing each other everyday. I hope they can really last because they are really sweet and cute together. I started drinking and got really hungry, Desmund bbq for me and Pamela was really being a sweetie b/c I didn't wanted my hands to get dirty so that darling peeled the chicken for me and fed me, hehe! Felt like a princess, being so loved xx

Don't mind my fat face, either my face is really fat or Alvin took the picture too near to me, haha! Anyway, I'm still wondering ways to get rid of baby fats so probably I'm starting a research on it soon! Had loads of Christmas kisses that night! Started teaching people how to play 5-10 and hehehe okay lah I'm kind of lika boss that night. They just kept drinking and drinking and Mengtat damn cool he go get beer for us b/c we keep kpkb. Who ask them to go hide the rest of the liquors? I think they are insane, they rather get Heinekens for us than getting those bottles out!

It's one of the weirdest chalets I've been to because many of them were crying, like the 6 of us??? Jillian started crying first then Pamela then Nicholas then another guy then me then Vernice. I really gave all my courage to make that call and cried so badly after you said "Confirm." It's not easy to ask that question and I've never hold anyone back in my life before. It's alright, I knew you're giving me false hopes. I'm letting you go, don't worry. :-) You won't care if I'm strong enough to take it all, you just knew that you never wanted me. Ha ha ha, ouch.

There's this boy who kept insisting play 5-10 with me and he's seriously drunk already, he puked out hot dogs and I feel like laughing b/c they ain't deformed, hahaha!!! Alvin was being a really nice guy, he was hugging all of us when we cried so badly! I'm so angry when Jillian cried, I wonder what's with me. Where were you when all the shits came to me? You were one of those that were giving me problems... but I'm not happy without you and it's okay, nothing changed with or without me in your life. Am I so easily forgotten?

Realized my top changed? Hehe exchanged with Alvin!!! And Desmund was really annoying, I swear. But I'm glad he bought so much fun to us and he's one of those that solved my problems, aww!!! Talked to Fifi on the phone for awhile, now I missed him, haha. Can you believe it? I kept saying I would meet him but 2011 is ending already and yet I still haven't fulfill that promise. :-( I'm such an asshole.

Had Supper at Mac, this Vernice always never bring $$ with her so we walked the whole E-hub to find ATM machine and realized it was somewhere else, kind of tired of walking round and round. After having a full meal, went back and everyone was out at the BBQ pit and I went to asked "What's wrong?" Then they go like saying there's this monk saying that there's a lady hung herself at our room and that we shouldn't stay there or something. But walao then all those cowards just stayed outside, already pay for the room then go out and tolerate the cold weather? NOOOOO. And the rest of them that stayed above watched some crappy horror shows, not even scary!! Jillian the most useless one, came up the last, haha!

Look at Jillian's and my face, hahahaha. Everything went back to normal b/c there's really alot of us and nothing to be really afraid of. Started to snap loads of polaroids with those darlings. Jillian always take the nicer ones among those that we snapped, so unfair. :-(

 

I need to practice on how I smile already, it's getting more and more awkward! We kept taking turns to take polaroids and hahaha we seriously got nothing better to do!!!

 

Let the polaroids do the talking alright?

 

Okay, we were really exhausted and I changed in my pyjamas, (no joke i really bought it there.) Hehe! Then when the sun came up, we finally had some peace and I really want to sleep. This stupid Desmund used his fucking head to bang my tummy for don't know what fuck reason, really brain cocked up!!! We went off like around 11++, my make up smudge already and I feel like dying when I went home, gosh... Vernice still got energy to go to Mall to get her contact lens solution and fetch Yilong from Tekong, I really think she's incredible!!! Had loads of fun there, xxx. I hope things remain this way!

Troubles never come alone, they come together and all at once.

Okay, it's been a quite some time since I update again. I realized every post has almost a week's gap! Hahahaha, I really need to maintain this blog already but I think I kind of lost the blogging fever this year. Awww look at my guestbook, so dead. :-( Aren't you guys gonna be nice and comment something there? Haha, it's alright! Ask me a question at my formspring also can!
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15/12 - 16/12. Went drinking that day with Samuel and okay cause I drank a wee bit too much so I kind of forgotten who's there and what's their names! Okay, I remember there's this girl named Faye. I think she's kind of cute and I think we were kind of crazy that night as we.... hehe shall remain as a secret! Bused to Pasir Ris to look for Samuel and Faye first then waited for Vernice to come and cabbed down to Ferraria Park Condo to drink.

Show you a gif of retarded Vernice, I can't stop laughing at how tard she looked here:

I didn't make up that day and I only took a few pictures but I'm still going to update them anyway. Vernice went insane that night, she kept spam calling her boyfriend and I think I told her I wanted to call someone so she straight give the person 3 calls. Kind of annoying huh? Went to Amk to find Ahbi and Rongyao, I think. I really can't exactly recall what happened that night though.

 

I think I made a nuisance out of myself and I can't recall the other guys' name. Samuel said I almost dropped into the pool and the security guard complained about our noise level or probably just mine and he said I talked cock alot with him and he's really a super nice guy, he sent us around despite being a huge burden. I think I spoil the Condo's Christmas tree but I think it shouldn't be big, right? Hahahaha. I think I sound like those kind of monsters that come and attack townsville. Okay lame. Haha. Headed to Desmund's house and Dylan sent me to bus and went home around evening.
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17/12. Jillian Sher asked me not to wear nicely so she wore like don't know what and I wore like I came down to get a drink and I'm going home afterwards, haha! She said I wear like this so cannot go Dhoby Ghaut and have my Just Acia! Walao, I don't mind but she mind :-( Somebody 嫌弃我。Ended up having Pepper Lunch and went over to Alvin's house and talk cock sing song, heart to heart talk with Sher and Alvin and headed home near midnight. Had a great day just talking about what fucked up stuffs happening to each other recently.
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19/12. Met with Dylan, go ICA building do I/C.
20/12. B/c Sheena did well for her N's so I said we would tonned. And great, we ended up tonning but I was really tired and she's acting really weird recently, I'm kind of freaked out.

Went to funeral for awhile, hope he rest in peace, xx. Went to talk with Ahbear there and saw Orhleng, it's been quite some time though, haha. Sheena didn't want to sit there so Vernice went with me instead. Cabbed there, so chor. Taxi fare keep increasing and I have been cabbing for the whole entire month. Vernice is a happy girl, she got her Iphone 4s like finally else she'd be stuck in her army phone. But after she got her phone, she kept checking in everywhere she go, so annoying!!! Went to find Ahbi, Rongyao and Justin at Amk central and sat there to have our supper. Headed off around 3-4am+ to meet Sheena's friend, Iggy or something to go rounding. Went back to Plaza and headed to Block 107 and sat there, Panda and his friend came afterwards. Headed home like around 8am+.

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24/12. Xmas Eve. Went to Grandparents' house and slept practically most of the time there cause I was exhausted. Woke up and played with my darling cousins. It's been a really long time since we played like this and not to mention even talked to each other. I hope Geraldine will still be a good girl after getting up to Secondary School, all the best to her xx.

This is Donovan, ain't he cute? He's the most violent among all the kids but he's nice to me that day, kind of weird? Hahahaa! We played with lightsticks and okay I may sound childish but I think it's pretty fun! Hahahaha! Samantha is being a nuisance that day and okay, so am I. I was blabbering about whether if I should text him and the kids got sick of my naggings so they go like "JUST TEXT LA JIEJIE." Hahahaha!
They all had their Xmas presents and guess who got the biggest gun? Okay it just shoots styrofoam bullets but it still hurts okay! And thanks for the unexpected Christmas text you sent me, made my day, really.

Okay, so Felix got the biggest gun! He must be a really happy boy because he's always fond of such 'weapons', haha! Kids are always easily contented so I really hope I didn't grow up but awww no such thing. After having toys war, went to have dinner and this is like one of those rare occasions where you get to nom on turkeys, yum yum! Franco and Yati cabbed home while I went to find Jillian. She's the first one I saw for Christmas, mua. Home sweet home at around 2am+. The taxi uncle is being such asshole, he said I looked like 25years old. Gosh? Primary 1 for Felix next year and I hope he can really get used to it. Ain't he lovable? Hehe, my little brother. ♥